Another year older...

Yup, another year older.

This year I just had a party with Grif at Mojo, and it was a lot of fun! I ended up getting quite drunk, and left a trail of destruction through the house though...
Good thing my flatmate is cool and just laughed at me.

Something that I didn't expect was my ex turning up and staying for the whole night.
I really appreciated that. Shows that despite the break up she still cares. Possibly.

Similarily, something I didn't expect was to go to her birthday and have an awesome time.
I ended up staying the whole night (not like that) and really enjoying just simply being friends. There was none of the usual paranoid regret I have had in the past at all night parties like that, and even the following days I had no come down from it, which was very good for my heart and mind.

I'm happy to say that I think the worst of the break up and feelings is over. I can now move on, and I'm glad to say I've still got a friend out of it.

The Jam goes fortnighly!

Adelaide's only place to hear hiphop, breaks, dub, dubstep, two step, garage and dancehall, The Jam, is now on the SECOND and LAST Fridays of the month!

I am so excited to have a fortnightly gig, but that means I have to buy more records :D

Big Day Out 2005

WHOA! What an awesome day.

I've been going to the Big Day out since it first hit Adelaide in 1993, have only missed two (the so called 'final' one in 1997, and then again in 2003) and this was one of the better ones I've been to.

It was the first time in the history of the BDO in Adelaide that it has sold out, and there were 30,000 people going off bigtime!

The highlights for me were Wolfmother, Zero Kelvins, Concord Dawn, Freestylers, Beastie Boys, Hilltop Hoods and Chemical Brothers

For a full, comprehensive review of the day, with a contribution by yours truely, visit dB Magazine

Mature Video Games in the Minority

Mature Video Games in the Minority

Great article about "Mature" video games

Crazy weekend

Well, what a crazy, alcohol fueled weekend!

Friday night was a going away party for one of the guys leaving work.

He's going to China to work on games over there. Hopefully in a few years time I'll feel confident enough to take on a role like that. I've only been working at Ratbag for just over a year, and although I can do testing fine, there aren't many testing jobs about the place. Once I get into level design things might be different.

Anyway, it was at the Grace Emily, a cosy little pub in the city, and I got very pissed and unlike last time I was there, throughly enjoyed myself.

On Saturday, I was invited to an old school friend's birthday. I was only invited on the Friday, and their house is ages out of the city, and as I still rely on public transport I thought it just wasn't worth it... If I had a little more time, I woud have saved money for a cab!

Anyway, I stayed home, had a drink or two, watched foxtel, and my flatmate went out to a dinner, bringing peeps back with her, and then inviting more along the way.

It was a pretty damn crazy night, between about 8 of us we polished off 12 bottles of wine!

I passed out at around 4 or 5 am, and apparently some guy got a wicked blood nose (thru natural cause - we aren't violent people ;) and my wonderful flatmate cleaned it all up, and then continued to do the whole house before I got up! It helped that she was geared up to do it...

Needless to say I'm feeling pretty seedy right now :-S

Next week is the Schutzenfest (aka the Shit Faced Festival) and I might head along, although it tends to be a VERY expensive day, and I have little money...

However, if a certain someone goes, I'll probably go too...

Happy New Year!

I'm happy to say that 2005 looks indeed to be my year.

It's amazing what the space of 5 days can do for you... My post on the 29th was an indication of how bad I was feeling, but now none of that matters.

I had two awesome nights on the 30th and 31st Dec with some new, interesting people, and the symbolic new year has lifted my mood considerably.

Nothing too exciting happened, but something happened to get me excited about this year, something to get me excited about life in general once more!

It's a new dawn, a new day, a new life for me, and I'm feeling GOOD!

I just totally weirded out!

These are the lyrics of a Club Hoy song, an aussie girl folk band circa 1990...

Hey, don't scoff, I liked them when I was young and stupid, OK!?

Anyway, I was going thru my CDs and found this, and listened to the song called "Oh Julian".

Seriously, I don't like attaching music to situations or people, because then I end up hating the music (as I do now with Cure & the Smiths... Damn You Fremont High School!), but this is so much like my situation right now it's scarey. Like, Twilight Zone scarey.

Like, now I think I'm going to have to find a way to make a time machine, and go back in time, and force myself to buy this CD, in order to warn myself about this impending disaster.

But then, maybe that's already what happened, and I didn't get the hint, so I'll have to go back in time again and make myself realise in some other way!

I didn't mean to make Julian cry
I started talking and the tears fell from the sky
He gave me a ring so I couldn't think
He built me a cage so he would be safe
Oh Julian

It wasn't me who made Julian sad
It wasn't me who said "that's just too bad"
I started changing while he stayed the same
Oh Julian, what's in a name
Oh Julian

Oh Julian don't cry, don't cry
I didn't mean to hurt you
I didn't want to lie
Oh Julian
Oh Julian
You made me want to die

It wasn't me who cried until dawn
It wasn't me who woke up alone
I knew it would end but I had my friends
I knew he would fall in a heap at my door
Oh Julian

Oh Julian don't cry, don't cry
I didn't mean to hurt you
I didn't want to lie
Oh Julian
Oh Julian
You made me want to die

Damn you Julian for letting me down
Damn you now I won't be around
To pick up your heart and make a new start
Why can’t you learn that time just turns
Oh Julian
Oh Julian
Oh Julian

Oh Julian don't cry, don't cry
I didn't mean to hurt you
I didn't want to lie
Oh Julian
Oh Julian
Oh Julian
You made me want to die

worst.christmas.ever... for millions of people!

At least my life hasn't been impacted on by the Tsunami that hit Asia.

I had some friends over in Thailand, Sri Lanka and Indonesia somewhere, but they are all OK and accounted for, thank God!

I feel sorry for the families who have lost loved ones, their homes and livelihoods.

Although I'm totally broke now, hopefully I will be able to give some money to Red Cross in a few weeks. I won't be able to give much, but every little bit helps!

To make a donation to Red Cross Australia CLICK HERE
or call the Hotline on Freecall 1800 811 700 (Australia Only)
or send a cheque/money order to GPO Box 9949 in Your Capital City
(citing the Asia Quake and Tsunamis Appeal)

And for those who are concerned about Australian relatives or friends in the affected countries please contact the DFAT Hotline: 1800 002 214 or visit www.dfat.gov.au.

worst.christmas.ever.

I had the worst christmas ever.

Let's start at the begining...

My ex, for whom I still have feelings, asked me Christmas eve if I was going to a club. I was thinking about it, coz the dude who runs the night is an old friend, and funny one at that, and when I told her I was thinking about it, she told me she was only asking because she might be with someone there... It was nice of her to tell me, but considering I was feeling as lonely as fuck anyway it was the start of a terrible holiday.

So I spent Christmas eve sleeping alone - first time in three years I didn't have someone to wake up to and get excited with and give presents to. More telling, I woke up having nightmares about needing to be hit by lightning to be accepted amongst my friends, which was weird enough as it is, but then I had nightmares about my ex being with somebody else, and THEN when I tried to wake up I dreamt I couldn't get my sleeping mask off! Great start to what should be a joyous day.

Then my mum called, and said plans had changed and that we were going to my aunts. There was no way I could get to the train on time, so I had to miss out. Then when I did try and make the train, I underestimated the time it'd take to walk to the train station, and even though I sprinted half the way, the train pulled out of the station just as I arrived. So I was sweaty and gross by the time I got to my mums. I guess it's not all bad... I got to read my book for an extra half hour.

Then I went to my friend’s house. I nearly killed a little cunt on the bus who was being racist and ignorant. There was a parade of Africans from I guess an African Church celebrating the birth of Jesus - you know, the whole reason why we were having this holiday - and this little mongaloid looking freak is saying all kinds of crap like "they're heading for their boat" and crap like that. Moreover the bus driver was agreeing with him! Sure, the driver could have been just humoring him, but still... I was going to say something, but I was still angry because of the crap I had been through earlier, and really, what can you say to a little ignorant prick like that apart from "eat shit and die, you ugly little fuck!"

Anyway, I got to my friend's house to find they were having a bad holiday as well. My friend started to tell me about it, but it must have been clear that I didn't want to hear, coz she stopped. Then my ex rocks up. I knew she was going to be there, I had a card and some CDs for her, but didn't imagine what my reaction would be. I was filled with an overbearing sense of simultaneous loss and dread. Just the thought of her with another guy made me feel so WRONG. I basically bolted as soon as I could. I feel so bad though, because the look on her face when I left was so sad. She knew I was leaving because of her.

Thing is, I don’t want to feel like this. I want to move on, like she has. And not just because she has, but because feeling like I do is absolutely fucked. I don’t like feeling sad and lonely and miserable all the time. I don't like waking up crying anymore. I want to be happy again.

More importantly I want to have a lasting friendship with my ex. She is an amazing individual and I know we can be good friends – we were good friends when going out; we rarely fought, we enjoy each other’s company, we’re just good people together. I know it is going to take time to heal, but I just wish it would all happen sooner. I don’t want to feel bad when I see her or when people talk about her, and I don’t want to make her feel bad in return.

Anyway, after that I went to some other friend’s house, but I caught the wrong bus and had to walk for about 10 minutes. At least once there I started to enjoy myself finally… maybe it was all the coopers I drank though… And on Sunday, I went to an old school friend’s house, and again missed the bus and got off at the wrong stop, but that didn’t matter too much. These are the people that, although we’ve all gone different directions – they all have young kids and live in the ‘burbs, whereas I still act like a kid (clubing, DJing, I work for a games company) and live in the city – when we get together it’s fun, fun times.

Oh, and to top all this off, I only got two presents… a bed spread from my mum & a copy of Dr Strangelove as a secret santa.

At least there’s only a few more days of the year left… 2005 has got to be a better year!

Birth Of Santa?

I got a letter published in the Age...

"The Birth of Santa?"

I think it's so funny my letter was published! And it was the second letter in the section!

This truly makes me an Old Bastard!

Ctrl Alt Del - Tragically l337

Funny coz it's true!

Still alive!

Just posting to say I'm still alive.

I haven't had too much positive to speak about, so have been rather quiet.

Enchanted was last week, and it was pretty good - lots of media hype about it though and I'm gonna write a bit more on it sometime later.

DJ Z-Trip is playing tonight, and I'm looking forward to it.

I have an interview with Z in dB Magazine... Check it out!

World AIDS Day - 1 December 2004

World AIDS Day - 1 December 2004

Need I say more?

Rockin' it once again!

Well, I rocked it once again at Mojo last night!

When I first got there I was shit - I was in such a bad mood that it effected my mixing to the point where I gave the decks over to Trucker as soon as he arrived. DJs never surrender the decks easily...

I was going to leave, but something made me stay...

Maybe it was all the hot chicks in tight, revealing clothes.

I stayed for and, loath to admit, enjoyed Truckers set... and enjoyed Crispins too but always do... but then Crispin had to go to another gig and Grif still hadn't arrived, so I stepped up.

As soon as I put the first record on, the dance floor filled. I don't know, maybe the people were up for dancing to breaks rather than 2-step, but I started playing funky party breaks - Finger Lickin', Krafty Kuts, Freestylers and the like, and people just filled the floor.

I had the dancefloor more packed than I ever have in the past.

It was AWESOME!

Because I was in a bad mood I took a lot of harder stuff, as well as hiphop, and was starting to think 'what the fuck do I play now?" but then Grif arrived.

He had to bail straight after his set, so I did the closing set by playing a lot of hard nasty breaks and basslines (Aquasky, the Breakfastaz, etc) and left around 3:30 because I was totally stuffed.

Sample the Future

Fantastic article from wired magazine about copyright and the creative commons.

I normally don't buy magazines, but I'm picking this one up for sure!

Sample the Future

Breakdancing Transformers

This has been online for a while, but it's bloody fantastic!

Breakin Transformers!

Need Advice! Post Comments Please!

Hey there Readers!

I need your advice, so please feel free to add comments on this post...

I'm wondering if I should replicate my reviews here rather than just having links...

Having links makes it easier for me, but do people visit the links?

And do you think it would drive more traffic to this site if I had the full interviews or reviews?

Please add a comment to tell me what you think!

Publicising my blog...

Regular visitors will notice a few more buttons and such around the page...

This is so I can get a little more traffic to the site.

If it looks too obtrusive, let me know!

Interview: Tayo

My dB Magazine interview with DJ Tayo is now online.

>Click Here<


DJ Tayo is one of my favourite DJs, has been since I saw him at Vibes on a Summers Day in 2001, and his latest mix CD Beatz and Bobz Vol 3 is an awesome mix!

Review: Fable

My dB Magazine review of Fable is now online

>click here<