Wednesday 29 December 2004

I just totally weirded out!

These are the lyrics of a Club Hoy song, an aussie girl folk band circa 1990...

Hey, don't scoff, I liked them when I was young and stupid, OK!?

Anyway, I was going thru my CDs and found this, and listened to the song called "Oh Julian".

Seriously, I don't like attaching music to situations or people, because then I end up hating the music (as I do now with Cure & the Smiths... Damn You Fremont High School!), but this is so much like my situation right now it's scarey. Like, Twilight Zone scarey.

Like, now I think I'm going to have to find a way to make a time machine, and go back in time, and force myself to buy this CD, in order to warn myself about this impending disaster.

But then, maybe that's already what happened, and I didn't get the hint, so I'll have to go back in time again and make myself realise in some other way!


I didn't mean to make Julian cry
I started talking and the tears fell from the sky
He gave me a ring so I couldn't think
He built me a cage so he would be safe
Oh Julian

It wasn't me who made Julian sad
It wasn't me who said "that's just too bad"
I started changing while he stayed the same
Oh Julian, what's in a name
Oh Julian

Oh Julian don't cry, don't cry
I didn't mean to hurt you
I didn't want to lie
Oh Julian
Oh Julian
You made me want to die

It wasn't me who cried until dawn
It wasn't me who woke up alone
I knew it would end but I had my friends
I knew he would fall in a heap at my door
Oh Julian

Oh Julian don't cry, don't cry
I didn't mean to hurt you
I didn't want to lie
Oh Julian
Oh Julian
You made me want to die

Damn you Julian for letting me down
Damn you now I won't be around
To pick up your heart and make a new start
Why can’t you learn that time just turns
Oh Julian
Oh Julian
Oh Julian

Oh Julian don't cry, don't cry
I didn't mean to hurt you
I didn't want to lie
Oh Julian
Oh Julian
Oh Julian
You made me want to die


Tuesday 28 December 2004

worst.christmas.ever... for millions of people!

At least my life hasn't been impacted on by the Tsunami that hit Asia.

I had some friends over in Thailand, Sri Lanka and Indonesia somewhere, but they are all OK and accounted for, thank God!

I feel sorry for the families who have lost loved ones, their homes and livelihoods.

Although I'm totally broke now, hopefully I will be able to give some money to Red Cross in a few weeks. I won't be able to give much, but every little bit helps!

To make a donation to Red Cross Australia CLICK HERE
or call the Hotline on Freecall 1800 811 700 (Australia Only)
or send a cheque/money order to GPO Box 9949 in Your Capital City
(citing the Asia Quake and Tsunamis Appeal)

And for those who are concerned about Australian relatives or friends in the affected countries please contact the DFAT Hotline: 1800 002 214 or visit www.dfat.gov.au.

Monday 27 December 2004

worst.christmas.ever.

I had the worst christmas ever.

Let's start at the begining...

My ex, for whom I still have feelings, asked me Christmas eve if I was going to a club. I was thinking about it, coz the dude who runs the night is an old friend, and funny one at that, and when I told her I was thinking about it, she told me she was only asking because she might be with someone there... It was nice of her to tell me, but considering I was feeling as lonely as fuck anyway it was the start of a terrible holiday.

So I spent Christmas eve sleeping alone - first time in three years I didn't have someone to wake up to and get excited with and give presents to. More telling, I woke up having nightmares about needing to be hit by lightning to be accepted amongst my friends, which was weird enough as it is, but then I had nightmares about my ex being with somebody else, and THEN when I tried to wake up I dreamt I couldn't get my sleeping mask off! Great start to what should be a joyous day.

Then my mum called, and said plans had changed and that we were going to my aunts. There was no way I could get to the train on time, so I had to miss out. Then when I did try and make the train, I underestimated the time it'd take to walk to the train station, and even though I sprinted half the way, the train pulled out of the station just as I arrived. So I was sweaty and gross by the time I got to my mums. I guess it's not all bad... I got to read my book for an extra half hour.

Then I went to my friend’s house. I nearly killed a little cunt on the bus who was being racist and ignorant. There was a parade of Africans from I guess an African Church celebrating the birth of Jesus - you know, the whole reason why we were having this holiday - and this little mongaloid looking freak is saying all kinds of crap like "they're heading for their boat" and crap like that. Moreover the bus driver was agreeing with him! Sure, the driver could have been just humoring him, but still... I was going to say something, but I was still angry because of the crap I had been through earlier, and really, what can you say to a little ignorant prick like that apart from "eat shit and die, you ugly little fuck!"

Anyway, I got to my friend's house to find they were having a bad holiday as well. My friend started to tell me about it, but it must have been clear that I didn't want to hear, coz she stopped. Then my ex rocks up. I knew she was going to be there, I had a card and some CDs for her, but didn't imagine what my reaction would be. I was filled with an overbearing sense of simultaneous loss and dread. Just the thought of her with another guy made me feel so WRONG. I basically bolted as soon as I could. I feel so bad though, because the look on her face when I left was so sad. She knew I was leaving because of her.

Thing is, I don’t want to feel like this. I want to move on, like she has. And not just because she has, but because feeling like I do is absolutely fucked. I don’t like feeling sad and lonely and miserable all the time. I don't like waking up crying anymore. I want to be happy again.

More importantly I want to have a lasting friendship with my ex. She is an amazing individual and I know we can be good friends – we were good friends when going out; we rarely fought, we enjoy each other’s company, we’re just good people together. I know it is going to take time to heal, but I just wish it would all happen sooner. I don’t want to feel bad when I see her or when people talk about her, and I don’t want to make her feel bad in return.

Anyway, after that I went to some other friend’s house, but I caught the wrong bus and had to walk for about 10 minutes. At least once there I started to enjoy myself finally… maybe it was all the coopers I drank though… And on Sunday, I went to an old school friend’s house, and again missed the bus and got off at the wrong stop, but that didn’t matter too much. These are the people that, although we’ve all gone different directions – they all have young kids and live in the ‘burbs, whereas I still act like a kid (clubing, DJing, I work for a games company) and live in the city – when we get together it’s fun, fun times.

Oh, and to top all this off, I only got two presents… a bed spread from my mum & a copy of Dr Strangelove as a secret santa.

At least there’s only a few more days of the year left… 2005 has got to be a better year!

Thursday 23 December 2004

Birth Of Santa?

I got a letter published in the Age...

"The Birth of Santa?"

I think it's so funny my letter was published! And it was the second letter in the section!

This truly makes me an Old Bastard!

Friday 10 December 2004

Still alive!

Just posting to say I'm still alive.

I haven't had too much positive to speak about, so have been rather quiet.

Enchanted was last week, and it was pretty good - lots of media hype about it though and I'm gonna write a bit more on it sometime later.

DJ Z-Trip is playing tonight, and I'm looking forward to it.

I have an interview with Z in dB Magazine... Check it out!

Saturday 27 November 2004

Rockin' it once again!

Well, I rocked it once again at Mojo last night!

When I first got there I was shit - I was in such a bad mood that it effected my mixing to the point where I gave the decks over to Trucker as soon as he arrived. DJs never surrender the decks easily...

I was going to leave, but something made me stay...

Maybe it was all the hot chicks in tight, revealing clothes.

I stayed for and, loath to admit, enjoyed Truckers set... and enjoyed Crispins too but always do... but then Crispin had to go to another gig and Grif still hadn't arrived, so I stepped up.

As soon as I put the first record on, the dance floor filled. I don't know, maybe the people were up for dancing to breaks rather than 2-step, but I started playing funky party breaks - Finger Lickin', Krafty Kuts, Freestylers and the like, and people just filled the floor.

I had the dancefloor more packed than I ever have in the past.

It was AWESOME!

Because I was in a bad mood I took a lot of harder stuff, as well as hiphop, and was starting to think 'what the fuck do I play now?" but then Grif arrived.

He had to bail straight after his set, so I did the closing set by playing a lot of hard nasty breaks and basslines (Aquasky, the Breakfastaz, etc) and left around 3:30 because I was totally stuffed.

Wednesday 24 November 2004

Sample the Future

Fantastic article from wired magazine about copyright and the creative commons.

I normally don't buy magazines, but I'm picking this one up for sure!

Sample the Future

Sunday 21 November 2004

Breakdancing Transformers

This has been online for a while, but it's bloody fantastic!

Breakin Transformers!

Saturday 20 November 2004

Need Advice! Post Comments Please!

Hey there Readers!

I need your advice, so please feel free to add comments on this post...

I'm wondering if I should replicate my reviews here rather than just having links...

Having links makes it easier for me, but do people visit the links?

And do you think it would drive more traffic to this site if I had the full interviews or reviews?

Please add a comment to tell me what you think!

Friday 19 November 2004

Publicising my blog...

Regular visitors will notice a few more buttons and such around the page...

This is so I can get a little more traffic to the site.

If it looks too obtrusive, let me know!

Interview: Tayo

My dB Magazine interview with DJ Tayo is now online.

>Click Here<


DJ Tayo is one of my favourite DJs, has been since I saw him at Vibes on a Summers Day in 2001, and his latest mix CD Beatz and Bobz Vol 3 is an awesome mix!

Review: Fable

My dB Magazine review of Fable is now online

>click here<

Thursday 18 November 2004

Monday 15 November 2004

South Park!

Oh my god, tonight's episode was so funny - and half my friends didn't see it!

Well, thanks to the internet I'm able to get a copy :)

But for those friends of mine who missed it...

>Here's the funniest bit!<


I am so glad I saw this... it turned a blue day bright again...

Saturday 13 November 2004

Hello! I'm back!

Well, that was interesting to say the least. It was fun, but remind me not to ever do that kind of thing again.

I discovered many things about myself when I was away.

Most of them bad from my point of view.

I think I've truely broken something in my head, and it's never going to be right again.

At least I didn't make a fool out of myself... although I've got a feeling that it is yet to come.

Sunday 7 November 2004

Unforgettable Houseboats

I'm about to embark on a week long tour along the Murray River on the most pimpinest houseboat ever.


Unforgettable Houseboats


At first I was a little aprehensive - my ex is going to be on board, but we still get along well and more to the point this isn't about me and her, this is about our friend Maz.

There's going to be 9 others on the boat, all of them close friends, and we're taking lots of fun stuff along, so it's going to be pretty damn riotous!

Wish me luck! ;)

Thursday 4 November 2004

'Computer characters' shot man

'Computer characters' shot man

OK, this isn't funny... much...

But imagine if they dressed up as Mario and Luigi...

Wednesday 3 November 2004

Interview: Steinski

My dB Magazine interview with Steinski is now online

>CLICK HERE<

Tuesday 2 November 2004

Crikey - Is Australian Idol murdering pop music?

Crikey - Is Australian Idol murdering pop music?

This drivel was written about Australian Idol.

I'm not a big fan of 'pop' music, but Australian Idol does have a certain charm, and I think it's time for old dogs like Max Factor to learn a new trick, or roll over and die.

Does Max not realise that the Beatles were the first boy band? Their early stuff was pure unadulterated drivel, and mostly covers of other peoples songs.

If there had been a similar contest in the early 1960's, I have no doubt that the Beatles would have won that, because they were so marketable, just like Guy Sebastion.

It was only after a few good years, and an enormous amout of drugs, that they became the least bit interesting.

People have been saying the same crap about music for centuries, and it is, and always has been, elitist and nostalgic nonsense. Adorno said that Jazz was the anthesis of all modern music (or some such) in the 1920s, but how much as Jazz influenced ALL music since?

And music such as the Beatles and Beach Boys so-called longevity is only due to those who liked them in the earlier years still having so much sway on our airways and music press.

My advice to Max, learn to say something NEW about music or STFU.

Learn from your the subject of your latest column, John Peel... He had an open mind about all forms of music, and maybe you should too!

Saturday 30 October 2004

rockin' it!

I played a gig for the first time in two months last night, and I was rockin' it!

I started off playing funk for about half an hour, then started playing hiphop. At about 11pm, there was a bit of a crowd, and I dropped some new school breaks, mixing and cutting and even scratching! Not much though, because I'm not good at scratching... yet.

I don't like it when people request stuff, mainly because I won't have it and it's usually not in line with what I'm playing, but no one did last night, which is good. What's better is when people come up and ask what tunes I play, and had more than a few people come up, one girl with a pen and paper! (she was cute too! should have given her my number too...)

I've always been the 'music man', the guy who would comandeer the car stereo "can I put a tape in?" and through DJing at clubs, seeing heads bob and people start dancing, it's a natural extension of that.

I used to think I was getting too old to be mixing and DJing in clubs... I think it IS a young persons career, and you have to be really dedicated to do it and make it.

But for me it's not a career, nor would I want it to be. DJing is something I love to do, as a hobby, and I'd rather do it like I do than have to do it every week, whether I wanted to or not.

But recently I have been inspired by Steinski, who was 32 when he did the Payback Mix (Lesson One) in 1983, and he's just about to embark on a tour of Australia at the ripe age of 50 something!

He (amongst other people) have made me realise that 30 ISN'T old, it isn't the end of your life. If I'm lucky I'll live to I'm about 70 or 80, meaning my life isn't even half over, and there is so much to achieve.

He is the coolest person I have interviewed, and once I get off my arse I'm going to put it online.


Check out Steinksi's "Nothing To Fear: A Rough Mix" in the meantime!

Friday 29 October 2004

Little lady of Flores forces rethink of human evolution

WOW! Another species of human has been found!

One that lived at the same time as Homo Sapians...

It's way too late to comment coherently, and I gotta get up early in the morning, but this is simply incredible! The implications are wide ranging!

Little lady of Flores forces rethink of human evolutionbreaking science news headlines

Thursday 28 October 2004

Computer games 'can help children learn'

This story is floating around the net in various guises, but the Guardian seems to be one of the best sites for good news stories.

Computer games 'can help children learn'

"Like all games, computer and video games entertain while promoting social development, and playing and talking about games is an important part of young people's lives."

Not only young people! From a very young age we are told not to play with our food, privates, on the road, in the park after dark, don't touch this or that... but through video games we CAN do all that, and more!

Video games re-introduce the concept of play to our 21 Centuary lives. People rarely have time to sleep, let alone for other people. Families are decaying, violence is growing. People blame this on computer games and whatnot, but our lives are full of work work work. We don't get time to socialise with family or friends.

THIS is why society seems so bad - because we don't know it. We used to know our neighbours, the local cops, the local thugs even, but fear and prejudice and lack of time have forced us to become isolated from one another, hiding in our homes, protecting all our hard earned goods which in turn keep us isolated.

Video games help break that isolation, not enforce it. Through Xbox Live I've met some interesting and wonderful people whom I would class as "friends". I might not know what they look like, but I know them better than I know my neighbors. There is a great degree of socialisation that goes on. When you combine this with LANS and Internet Cafes, and you have probably one of the best places to socialise as there are so many different people who play games, all with different interests and opinions. Talking to them, playing with them, opens your mind to this diversity.

"games deserve to be treated by schools with the same seriousness as books and films"

People who make them are just as serious as people who make books and films. The amount of work and time that goes into games is phenomenal, I'd be much happier if there was an INFORMED academic and social debate on the role of video games, instead of stupid, pathetic rantings that we continually get in the press and from 'concerned parents groups'.

"Public antagonism towards computer games is simply the latest manifestation of a long tradition of 'fear of new media', according to Dr Burn. 'It goes all the way from the invention of the printing press to horror comics in 1950s America.'"
werd!

Wednesday 27 October 2004

RIP John Peel

John Peel, BBC Radio One DJ extraodinaire, passed away whilst on a working holiday in Peru of a heart attack.

Few DJs have had the devotion to new and interesting music as Peel, and the amount of bands that he helped onto the road of success is staggering.

One of his favourite songs was Undertones: Teenage Dreams.

Our teenage dreams so hard to beat
Everytime she walks down the street
Another girl in the neighbourhood
Wish she was mine, she looks so good

I wanna hold her wanna hold her tight
Get teenage kicks right through the night

I'm gonna call her on the telephone
Have her over cos i'm all alone
I need excitement oh i need it bad
And its the best, i've ever had

I wanna hold her wanna hold her tight
Get teenage kicks right through the night

I wanna hold her wanna hold her tight
Get teenage kicks right through the night



RIP Lighter!

A mate's writing

Here are some nice short stories from a mate of mine...

Tuesday 26 October 2004

Photo's with and without flash

Mini Reviews: Breaks CDs

Some new music I've gotten recently in the breakbeat genre...

Rennie Pilgrem - Pilgremage (TCR)
An interesting array of music for one of the biggest names in breaks. Lots a variety in sounds - acid jazzy type stuff to the breaky stuff he's renown for, plus a bit of house style stuff. To me the album is a little hit and miss... the good stuff is REALLY good, but the not so good stuff is surprisingly present.

Lee Coombs - Breakfast of Champions (Finger Lickin)
Fantastic album! Nice heavy basslines and lots of funky breaks and samples. Coombs really shows his dancefloor mentality and devotion here.

Hexstatic - Master View (NinjaTune)
Hexstatic are just so damn cool it's not funny. Musically this album is more accessable than their last, or maybe it's that peoples perception is catching up to Hexstatic. Lots of quirky, funny sounds and samples, and some damn nice funk there too! Yet to view the DVD, but it comes with 3D glasses so it's gotta be class! =)

Forefront - Mixed by EK (Falcon St Beats)
Fantastic album full of Aussie breaks producers such as EK, Nubreed, Friendly, Bass Kleph and more. The beats are really tough, the production is superb and the mixing is tight. Shows Aussie producers are just as good as anybody else.

Breaks 04 - Mixed by Kid Kenobi (Ministry of Sound)
I'm not the biggest fan of 'disco' breaks, and CD 1 is full of them, but this CD isn't as cheesy as the Kids' last effort. CD 2 features MC Sureshock, and the breaks are much harder, much to my liking. Again, it seems like an introduction to breaks rather than a showcase of the good stuff, but still is pretty decent.

Hybrid Presents Y4K - Hybrid (Distinctive Breaks)
Very interesting mix continuing the great Y4K series. Very cinematic in scope in some places, hard and heavy in others.

Palookaville - Fat Boy Slim
(Skint)
Another hit and miss album. The singles are really average, but the other songs (particularly Wonderful Night feat. Lateef) are awesome. Reminds me of the Gorilla album in it's scope.

Monday 25 October 2004

Video games move to the oldest selling point - www.smh.com.au

Video games move to the oldest selling point - World - www.smh.com.au

Why is the SMH running a story about games that are 'grown up' when these games were REFUSED CLASSIFICATION by the Office of Film and Literature, meaning we 'adults' cannot play ANY of them?

Saturday 23 October 2004

Adelaide is a joke!

2 hours to get to the airport and home again by public transport... a trip that normally would take half an hour in a car!

Not only that, but the bus doesn't even go to the terminal... it's a 10 minute walk!!!

It's a fucking joke.

What does that say to any international visitor???


But the reason I went to the airport was to pick up a package... my new ADSL modem which means I now have a 1.5M/256K connection from home... ALRIGHT!

Friday 22 October 2004

A Current Affair on Video Games

Well, it's good to see ACA has followed up the 60 Minutes report into the video games industry with it's own well considered and researched piece of 'journalism'...

One study conducted in one day with one group of kids PROOVES violent video games affect child behavior of course!

When I first found out about this 'serious investigation into violent videogames' I whipped off an email to the producer of ACA Lucie McGeoch

here's what I sent her:

Hello Lucie,

My name is Julian Cram and I work for Ratbag Games in Adelaide, South Australia.

I read a post you made on the PlayNow video game forums

As someone who has been heavily involved in gaming since I was 12 years old, as well as someone who is a trained journalist, I would hope that your story is balanced and well researched, and not just feeding into the "why won't someone think of the children" frenzy that so often comes from ACA.

I am sure you are aware that the game Manhunt has been linked to a murder in the UK. I am also sure you are aware that the judge dismissed the media claims and said the game had nothing to do with it.

I am sure you are aware that a recent Government Inquiry into expanding tax consessions for film into the billion dollar games industry found that there is no correlation between violent video games and behavior, and also recommended an R18+ ratings be included for video games.

And, knowing these things, I would hope that the balanced story you will produce will feature these very important FACTS and not over-sensationalise to sell advertising space.

Thank you for your time.

Julian Cram
Tester, Webmaster & Customer Support

No response of course...

But, if you're a parent who saw this story, and are concerned about the impact of video games on your children, please check out this link which debunks some of the myths perpetuated by the media and organisations like Young Media Australia, an insidious organisation of "won't someone think of the children" types who justify their government sponsored sallaries with dubious research projects and television appearances on shows such as ACA and Today Tonight.

I don't advocate forcing children to play violent video games - in fact I support an R18+ rating for video games so that children can be better protected from adult content. But the onus should be on parents to take an interest in what their children do, participate with them and monitor their activites.

Thursday 21 October 2004

Moving again...

but this time only in cyberspace...

the direct URL of my blog is now http://www.users.tpg.com.au/funkyj/sciolism.html

I've moved from internode to TPG because TPG is $20 cheaper per month for twice the speed.

I still highly recomend internode but I pay more rent now at my new place so need to conserve as much cash as possible.

Weird Dream

It's a rare night when I DON'T have a bizzare dream, but last night's dream was pretty damn funny.

I was in my old childhood home, and having a bit of a party. I walked past a room, and the door was open, and there were people in the bed.

"Don't open the door", my mother screamed from within the room, and I saw the figure of a male friend of mine get out of the bed.

My friend and my mother had been getting it on!

I simply said "the door was already open", and then they started arguing over how it was going to affect me. I told them it was OK, I was cool with it, and to enjoy themselves!

Then I went into the lounge, where my first ex was cooking a BBQ, and my second ex was sitting watching Star Trek, in an episode where everyone was infected with a virus that made everyone rave (dance), including the BORG. I sat down next to her, told her about seeing my mum and my friend, and she said "I thought he was gay". I said that's just what we joke about, and then she and I snuggled on the couch watching the BORG gettin' jiggy to some really funky 70's porn music

I then woke up, laughing.

Wednesday 20 October 2004

Review: The Sims 2

My dB Magazine review of the Sims 2 is now online

>CLICK HERE<

Interview: Crackpot

My dB Magazine interview with Jade from Crackpot is now online.

>CLICK HERE<

Swordfish Steaks

I ate Swordfish Steaks last night!

Cooked wonderfully by my new housemate, in payment for getting the munchies and eating my Chicken Tikka.

And I enjoyed them! Couldn't have it everyday, but would eat it again.

This is an accomplishment because I don't eat fish. Usually I don't like the taste, texture or smell.

The only fish I like is Salmon, and it had to be fresh and cooked properly, or as Sushi. Oh, and I've eaten Baramundi, and not disliked it.

Volleyball

I played in my first volleyball game for about a half a year last night.

Playing with a team from Ratbag called the "Sand Bags".

What a great start to the season - ended the game on my back with the ball smacking me in the face =)

Volleyball is so much fun: gives me a chance to perve and and keeps me fit over summer.

Tuesday 19 October 2004

Review: Rocky Legends

My XboxWorld Australia review of Rocky Legends is now online...

>CLICK HERE<

...set it free

The old adage "if you love something, set it free... if it comes back, it was meant to be" doesn't even hint at the torture of waiting for it to come back or leave forever.

I am the world's most patient man. If patience is a virtue, then when I die I'm going to be made Jesus. I once waited 4 hours for a girl. And I didn't get too pissed off that she stood me up! Did I mention there was NO chance of sex with this girl? Some might say that borders on insanity.

But waiting for something to come back (or leave forever) is agonising.

And how do you know it's gone forever? I suppose moving to another state or country is a good sign, but what if that person is still in the same town as you? Still friends?

How long do you wait? A few months? Years? because I could wait years...

And what are you meant to do whilst waiting? You don't want to jeopardize it by being too interested in someone else, but at the same time you don't want to hobble yourself either, miss out on opportunity.

Nor do you want to stifle them. They need space, hence the break, but how much is too much... you want to keep yourself on their radar, but not so much so that you're the only focus.

damn it, I had more to say, but I forgot it...
I should write this stuff down... or get a laptop or phone with wireless internet access...

Monday 18 October 2004

No ADSL and No Foxtel make J something something...

Moved!

well, I've moved.

Everything is in my new place, and it is quite cosy in my new room.

At the moment I've got a queen sized matress on the floor, and everything is squeezed in around it. There's very little space to manuver... and even less space for all my junk and toys.

At the moment I've got it set up so I can play xbox or watch TV from my bed :)

Saturday night at inbound was lots of fun, I just wish I wasn't so damn exhausted from moving.

Saturday 16 October 2004

moving

yes, after 8 years of living in Grosvenor St, I'm moving.

8 of the most interesting years of my life. I've had so much happen to me, seen and done so much...

My happiest memories and my saddest memories are contained in this house, but it is time for me to move on.

At first I was scared of what my future held, but now I realise there's something to be more afraid of... holding on to the past too much.

That is what could of happened to me if I stayed.

I don't want that. I dont' want to dwell in the past, dwell in memories. I want to live life. I want to move on.

Oh, and speaking of moving, check this!

idiot

last night I broke two cardinal rules of blogging... I blogged whilst drunk, and abut women...

IDIOT!

thank god for the Delete option

Friday 15 October 2004

Halo 2 leaked

Halo 2 has been leaked onto the net, and as I type thousands of copies are being downloaded via bittorrent...

Goto Gamespot for more information

Working for a games developer I feel sorry for Bungie & M$. Those programmers and level designers and testers worked hard on that, and to have your code leaked, the posibility of spoilers and hacks being made before the game gets released must be devastating.

But being an internet geek I'm not surprised in the slightest. Halo2 is the biggest release for M$ and Xbox, and seeing as how its cool to hate M$ then it was really only a matter of time.

Hell... Ratbag's latest Dukes of Hazzard: Return of the General Lee apparently is all over suprnova!


Thursday 14 October 2004

Anyone want a Gmail Account?

I've got a few to give away...

email me... Mr.Funky.J[at]gmail.com

replace [at] the with @

Speaking of games...

Someone forwarded me this at work...

cute rabbit game :)


Urge to Kill fading

Yes, what blog would be complete without quoting the Simpsons?!

My anger has been washed away... Well diluted at any rate.

The anger I still hold is actually for a reason, which involves a very insensitive bitch who, against all better judgement, I've stuck by for years, even though she's clearly been in the wrong on many occasion.

Most people can't stand her, but she helped me out at a time when no one else would, and I've a strong loyalty to her for that.

However, this time I tried to do the right thing by everyone, which she's taken offence to, and I'm off her friends list.

Thing is, I don't care.

I'm 31 years old and just can't be fucked playing games with people like that...

Wednesday 13 October 2004

Why am I so ANGRY today?

I don't get it... I simply don't get it.

Why am I so angry today? I woke up angry. WHY?

Sure, I've had some shitty things happen to me recently, but that happened months ago, and I'm moving on.

I'm moving out with one of my oldest, funniest friends, into the city proper, this weekend.

It's inbound this weekend and so it's PARTY TIME big time, and I may even head to traffic to see Kid Kenobi and MC Sureshock after being well impressed by the Ministry of Sound Breaks04 cd

I'm getting a fantastic pay this week, which I'm using to pay for my choice new headphones I got for $100 from ebay when they retail for $250

so why these feelings of anger???

Egad!

Egad!

I finally get this fucker working on one of my websites and I'm changing ISPs this week and will be losing this webspace in about a month!

Probably at a time I'll most need and outlet to EXPLODE on as well...

GGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

As my MSN Name reads currently: Why Do I Even Bother???

Thursday 12 August 2004

sciolism

sciolism \SY-uh-liz-uhm\, noun:
Superficial knowledge; a superficial show of learning.


is pretty much what this blog will be... a superficial show of what I've learned through experience and study.

testing